Wednesday, December 26, 2012

Day After Christmas with a Side of No Voice

Happy Day after Christmas!!!!

I'm hiding in my office because I don't have any type of voice for some reason or another. I don't have a fever but my throat just hurts like a mother fer.
Stupid throat.

this is me but just replace skool with work and we will be on the same page.

Monday (Christmas Eve) I slept in a bit and had the day off which was very nice. I watched some TV, worked on some crochet, and waited to go to my mom and grandma's for some present exchanging. On my way to my mom's they called me to ask me to call my vet to see if they were open because my aunt's dog jumped my mom's dog and my mom's dog won. I finally got to my parent's house and gave Ms. Pepper some loving since she had a puncture mark on her leg. She is a big baby and my parents don't understand her because she ignores them unless she wants something but if I'm there then she is all over me and giving me kisses.
I'm her favorite, we all know it.
I had finished wrapping gifts on Saturday so when I walked in of course no one had finished wrapping mine. We were only going to do my presents since I worked on Christmas and they were going to wait for the actual day.
I felt super weird just sitting there having everyone watch me open but luckily I brought their gifts and they agreed to open them while I was there.
I didn't take any photos because well.....we didn't, but I got my laptop that I've been wanting needing, pj's, earrings, bracelet, slippers, two lap top cases, cash, Barnes and Noble gift card, red and white stemless wine glasses, and some other little things.
My mom went to bed because she had to work at 11pm and I sat around waiting to hear from Nikki so I could meet up and see them for a bit.

Christmas day I had to work so I grabbed my little gifts for the staff and drove around hunting down a Starbucks which I kindly expressed my love to them after ordering my drink. Work was.....difficult. I will never understand why people can't be nice if their lives depended on it. I brought my laptop to work to work on it a little bit since I'm having a difficult relationship with Windows 8. We are still arguing.
After work I went on the hunt for food and then curled up on my couch while working on scarves.
Oh I forgot to mention.....I have 13 orders of scarves to fill.....THIRTEEN!!!!!!!!
I was hoping for a little break but no go. Time to get more yarn.

I felt ill last night so I ended up taking NyQuil and then passing out and over sleeping my alarm. I also woke up with no voice.
Joy
I now am at work for 10 hours, no voice, and it is one of our busiest days. My staff is going to try and keep people away so I don't have to talk much but I know once 2pm hits I'm probably going to have to write people notes.
I just want to curl up in bed and sleep forever but I'm not working tomorrow so we will use that day for sleeping, going to the movies, exchanging gifts with Hallie, and then laundry time at the folks.

I hope you all had an amazing Christmas and that if you had to work you still got some time to see your loved ones.

Is anyone else having an issue with Windows 8? I might need to pick your brain....

Friday, December 21, 2012

Dear Mayans


Dear Mayans what's up? Glad you were wrong. Even though I did go out last night and get some drinks to celebrate the end of the world. I was very disappointed though as I laid in bed at midnight to discover nothing happened. Also, Australia alerted us that they were still alive and no Zombies so that was fun.



Dear Santa I wish you were real. It would be amazing if I could just mail you what I need for other people and you could slide your fat butt down their chimney. If you actually happen to be real I need the following: drink cozie, coffee mugs, small bottles of wine, candy, bike pants, and all of these wrapped.

Dear Self I'm glad we realised we loved to read again BUT it is starting to cut into your sleeping time.

Dear World of Beer thank you SOOOOOO much for having ladies night last night without telling me. It was a wonderful surprise to see my bill being only $6 when one beer is usually more than that. You are now on my good side and I really think I might be seeing you more often on Thursdays.

Dear Megan I'm SOOOOOO GLAD! you were in town last night. I had such a blast with you and Aubry and we must get together again very very very very soon.

Dear Weekend can we go by at a relatively quick pace? I'm celebrating Christmas on Monday afternoon and really want my damn laptop like NOW.

Dear T-Mobile it would be amazing if you could lower the prices of your phones so I can get a new one. I'm really tired of this piece of shit one that I want to throw at a wall daily.

Dear Cute Boy at Starbucks I couldn't tell if you were straight or not but congrats on being able to fill out a suit very nicely. I seriously thought the thing was glued to your skin and it made sipping my morning coffee that much better.

Dear 2013 we are going to try and get out there more. If things happen the way they might happen this year you wont be spending that much time at home and it will be good for you. It is ok that we are thinking of doing this because it will help not just us but mom in the long run.

Hope you ladies have a great Christmas!!!!!!
Oh has anyone tried this before?! I've never had eggnog and I had a few sips of this....oh sweet baby jesus was it good!

Thursday, December 20, 2012

Santa Time!!!


So a while back I joined to participate in the Secret Santa!

I was pair up with Stacey @ Glued to My Crafts I have to say that lady is really really crafty! I hope that if I ever become a mom I can be as crafty as she is.

My Santa got me some pretty cute things

I swear I opened up the box and thought she knew me in real life.
I know she doesn't since the address isn't from anyone I know so that was a bonus in me not figuring it out sooner.

She got me a wonderful candle (I'm in love with them) which I'm saving to light till after Christmas since I already have a real tree in my house and I don't want to kill myself with holiday cheer. The little sparkly penguin goes amazing well with all the little owls that are scattered around my Christmas tree. I think there might be an issue I don't know about that involves a love of birds. The glasses were AMAZING! The bottom says water glasses but I've used them for milk (it makes the words stand out) and wine cause I'm classy like that. Oh and candy....score! Whoever my Santa was did a great job!

Last night was the company Christmas party which was pretty fun I got two $25 gift cards to two different restaurants. I traded one of them for a $15 Starbucks gift card that went along with the $25 one I already got as a present.
Starbucks you and I will be seeing each other a lot this month.

Starting today my job is going to probably make me want to take long long naps. Our controller is on vacation for two weeks which means that not only am I doing my job right now I'm also doing his.
At no extra pay.
Woot.....
Anyways I get to sit in his comfy office each morning and play with money and accounts which actually scares the crap out of me because I'm held responsible if it is screwed up. Blah.
See my comfy self and my large coffees will be here for a while. I want to clean and decorate it but I know that will just piss him off which makes me want to do it even more hehe.

I also think my coworkers are trying to kill me because this is the second giant cinnamon roll I've had two in two weeks. I'm currently dealing with a sugar rush.


Hope you are all getting ready for Christmas because I'm not I'm still panicking on the inside a bit.
Well, it could just be the sugar and coffee combo I'm dealing with.

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

Christmas Needs to Back Off

I've been off the last two days and I think I might want to strangle Christmas.
Ok, I can't really strangle Christmas (since it isn't a person) so I'll settle for the drunk Santa.
Oooo speaking of Santa I saw Santa in a red bike onesie, he was in pretty good shape.
Sorry....back onto topic, I think.

I've caught up on orders of scarves so that people can give them out as gifts. The issue with this is the fact that I'm now behind in making my scarves to give out as gifts. I only have a few left but it is just a few too many. Anyone want to tell me how to contact an elf or something to help me out here?

He will do
I also, sadly, have the issue of not really knowing what to get my family for Christmas. I mean come on I've had 24 years of buying them things and I'm running out of ideas. There are only so many earrings, socks, and garden items I can buy a person. I did have a brilliant idea of buying my grandma On Star to put in her 2003 Hyundai since she is 86, drives, and has Parkinson's. Of course stupid On Star wont work in her car because it is older than a 2011.
Thanks On Star you are ruining Christmas.

I did decide to get a hair cut yesterday. It was pretty amazing I love Dana. We are planning on doing purple highlights in April. I'm pretty excited!!!!!

Tonight I have to go to the work Christmas party....at work.
No alcohol will be served.
That's right you read that correctly.
NO ALCOHOL!!!!!!!
so now I have to work all day and then hang out with people while not drinking. Oh well....I did buy cute new shoes for tonight and did a horrible job on my nails :)


After today I think I might start having mini panic attacks every time I remember that I need to have everything bought and wrapped by Monday.
Deep breathing exercises beginning now.

Anyone else having to deal with Christmas shopping panic?

Monday, December 17, 2012

Giveaway and December Sponsor Intro

Happy Monday!
Today is my day off so I'm sitting in my apartment drinking coffee surrounded by yarn and scarves and cozies and hats....oh boy.
I need to focus on getting all these scarves made in time for people to give them out for Christmas AS WELL as complete my own gifts.
One of my employees said I need to hire someone to help me with all of this but it is cool. I plan on getting an amazing hand massage after all of this is completed. Hmmmm maybe I should call Ricky now to set up that appointment.
Since I'm sooooo freakin busy I've decided to introduce some lovely ladies as well as do a little giveaway!



My name is Christina at {Living Laughing Loving}. I am 20, currently studying History Ed at SUNY New Paltz. I am obsessed with crime shows like Criminal Minds & Law & Order...I swear I should have been a criminology major. I am a city girl, I love the city that never sleeps (NY). I love love love my fur baby Toby. He is a Maltese. I love to read and just chill out with friends on my free time (which is minimal since I am taking all major classes). I am extremely outspoken, which is can be a good thing or a bad thing depending on how its taken. I use my blog to express my self when I am feeling down or just to write whats on my mind, whether it be about life, school, fashion, college success...anything and everything.



Hi! I'm Millie and I blog at Little Miss Sunshine. I'm on a mission to live my life according to me and spread happiness along the way. Like Brie, I'm also a single lady and I'm starting to think the theme song for my love life might be "Another One Bites the Dust." Sometimes I drink too much and make bad choices. Other times I do awesome things like baking and volunteering. This means I end up blogging about everything from my random acts of kindness, like the time I handed out balloons with positive quotes on them to strangers on my birthday, to my thoughts on life and dating, like the time I wrote about what to expect if you date a girl like me. I hope you'll stop by and say hello sometime!


Blog//Twitter//Pinterest//Instagram//Etsy

Hi! I'm Angi and I blog over at Into the Forest Dim. I live in Sitka, Alaska (which is absolutely nothing like they depicted in The Proposal, for the record!) and I love my husband, my cat, tea, crocheting, crafting, birds, anything and everything hipster, and long walks on the beach. No, seriously, I love long walks on the beach. Anyway, hop over and say hi sometime - I'd love to meet you!


Hi guys!! I'm Nikki and I blog over at From a Miss to a Mrs.  Brie and I have been friends since 9th grade, so of course I sponsor her amazing blog!!! While Brie blogs about her single girl life and hilarious dating stories, over at From Miss to Mrs, I talk about being a newlywed (almost 10 months), doing things with our first home, saving money and paying off debt and random recipes and DIY projects I decide to try. I'm 25 and a dog mom to 3 hilarious pups, who make their way into the blog often. I work full time and also plan weddings so life keeps me plenty busy.  Come check it out!! You can also follow me on Facebook, Twitter or Instagram @NikkiL924! Hope to meet you all soon :)
Hello!  My name is Sarah from the blog Girlfriends Are Like Shoes. I started blogging about 2 years ago under the name "Ruby" but have recently come out from behind the pseudonym. I have a passion for kindness and like to do posts about positivity and the law of attraction. I believe positive thinking can help us all. I absolutely love the blogging world and am constantly trying to implement things I've learned. I'd love to connect with you so come on by and say hi!



Northern Belle Diaries




Now for the good stuff!
I'm hosting a little giveaway for one lucky lady.
It will include 50% off one item at The Urban North, a handmade infinity scarf (color is your choice) from me, and a surprise goody bag which I'll reveal what is inside when I announce the winner.
To enter is pretty dang easy. All you have to do is follow these ladies up top on either their blog or twitter or both and then comment below who you followed and how. On the 21st (Friday) I'll let you lovely ladies know who the winner is!

Hope you all had a great weekend and please remember a group of us ladies are doing a day of silence tomorrow in remembrance of the victims of Sandy Hook Elementary.

Sunday, December 16, 2012

Sunday Social w.28

 
Hey ladies!
Hope you are all having a great weekend! I haven't done a Sunday Social in a while so I figured hey, why not, I got time. Work this weekend has been beyond slow to the point where we kind of forget how to do our jobs. I know, strange. Oh well, the calm before the storm as we like to put it.
 
1. What is the wallpaper on your cell phone?
This is the main background and I even decided to put it on my work computer.
 
2. What do you keep beside your bed?
My bedside table has the lamp, nook, cell phone, hair ties, phone charger cord, and right now yarn that my cat decided to leave for me. 
 
3. What is your least favorite chore?
Any cleaning in general? Ok, fine, I'm not a fan of vacuuming my place because a) the thing doesn't pick up b) the amount of dog hair is ridiculous.
 
4. If you could eliminate one thing from your daily routine, what would it be?
Doing my hair because I just don't have time to tame this thing and then I step outside in the Florida weather and I turn into a chia pet. 
 
5. What do you do to vent anger?
When I'm alone I scream, and scream, and scream....and throw things. I once kicked the air vent in my mom's house and then tried to pretend I didn't break the damn thing. If I'm angry at something in my life i.e. how a person treated me then I know I pull away. I will try to not do it, I'll try to keep that relationship but if you do something to truly annoy/piss me off I eventually just give up trying. 
 
6. What is your favorite holiday of the year and why?
Christmas, I mean Thanksgiving is nice because of the family part, but I love Christmas because of all the lights and holiday stuff that is going on. I'm also a fan of my birthday, I've never done anything big for it, but I really do think it should be a holiday :).
 
Hope you are all enjoying your Sunday and what is your favorite thing about Christmas?

Saturday, December 15, 2012

Silence as a Sign of Support

I remember being in school when Columbine happened April 20, 1999.
It was rough knowing that someone sitting in your class with you could suddenly go crazy, bring in a gun, and just kill us all.
Yesterday, December 14th 2012, 20 small children ranging in age from 5 to 10, who have never had to think that about a fellow classmate, were murdered in cold blood along with 6 faculty members.
5 to 10 year olds.
Children who as the Presendent put it "beautiful little kids....they had their entire lives ahead of them - birthdays, graduations, weddings, kids of their own."
I don't have my own children, I always struggle with the thought of having them, but to think what those poor parents are going through is beyond comprehension.
My heart also goes out to the families of the 6 adults who lost loved ones yesterday, including Ryan who lost his mother and his disturbed brother.
We tend to forget what the family of the murderer has to go through. How people will look at them now knowing that they were related to someone who just snapped and decided one Friday to grab the guns in the house and just go out and kill people.
We might never know the real reason why Adam decided to do what he did. I don't think the reason actually matters to those parents because they know that it is a reason of complete delusion. No one has any real true reason to walk into a school and just start shooting innocents.
I sat at my desk this morning and just read the paper and my heart just hurt knowing that these things happen. That they happen all over the world, such as China yesterday where a man with a knife stabbed children on their way into school. Yesterday parents in two different countries had to stop and just wonder why people do the things that they do.
There are some great bloggers who are putting together a day of silence for the blogging community. You don't have to join, but it is just a sign that there are women all across the world who are going to stop and just focus on the things they have in their lives and the importance of it.
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To the Blog World and Anyone Else who Wants to Help,

Yesterday, tragedy struck so many of us in ways we did not foresee. An elementary school and small town in Connecticut was shattered by a mass shooting. We knew we wanted to help and we came up with this:


On Tuesday, December 18th, there will be a blogger day of silence. We will post the button and that’s it. Please try to not post anything else that day if possible.
We are also raising money that will go to an organization in the memory of this tragedy. The organization is called The Newtown Family Youth and Family Services.
Here is the official description of the support service we are donating to:

“Newtown Youth and Family Services, Inc. is a licensed, non-profit, mental health clinic
and youth services bureau dedicated to helping children and families achieve their
highest potential. NYFS provides programs, services, activities, counseling, support
groups and education throughout the Greater Newtown area."

ANY DONATIONS MADE TO NEWTOWN YOUTH AND FAMILY SERVICES WILL BE DONATED DIRECTLY TO THOSE EFFECTED BY THE SANDY HOOK ELEMENTARY SCHOOL SHOOTING. 
Please visit THIS PAGE to make your donation.

We can’t imagine how they must be feeling, especially this close to the holidays. We would love for you to spread the word on your own blog, Facebook, Twitter, etc. Let’s make a difference and use blogging in a positive way.

Thank you in advance for participating.
Love,
The Blog World

Thank you to Nelly, Meg, and Michelle for putting this together.

Friday, December 14, 2012

Friday Letters Yo.....

It's Friday!
Ya, I know, woot Brie still has to work this weekend, BUT work is SLOW!


So let us do this thang!


Dear Scarves I'm so happy I have most of you done. I just have 5 more to go! I'm taking a tiny break, I know bad me, but I want a damn hat so I'm working on that. So get over it.

Dear Samantha I'm sorry you decided to end things the way you did. Your family will miss you and it is a horrible situation but you will be in my thoughts.

Dear Starbucks I'm back to visiting you since the nice cute guy with the girl hair in the mall gave me the rewards card so I can get a free coffee....I'm only one away!



Dear Self we have some things to go over such as shave the damn legs. Just because you are single doesn't mean you should just forget you have legs.

Dear Christmas Cards I know I selected 7 days but if you would be so nice as to send them to me sooner that would be amazing because I'm looking forward to sending their cuteness out!

Dear Dancing I miss you. Even though I tend to look like I'm having a seizure or a drunk stripper.


Dear Dating History we need to have a talk. This is now the second time, SECOND, that we have been chatting with someone to discover you actually went on a date with them. The first time you were on a date when they told you, this time you were just chatting when they informed you you went on a date 7 years ago. This is a bit embarrassing and so I think we need to go back in time to visit 17 year old Brie to get a refresher on who we've dated. It's a bit of a shock that isn't needed when chatting with a cute guy.



Dear Mom I know you got me my laptop for Christmas but the question of pink or purple is really throwing me off. I don't know what to think and we all know I HATE surprises, like beyond hate. I sadly think I might pull a move from when I was little and go snooping in the house while you are sleeping. I know super creepy. Don't judge.


Hope you all have an amazing weekend!
Oh and sorry for all the GIFs I blame Jess
XOX
Brie

Thursday, December 13, 2012

Are You a Facebook, a Twitter, or a Pinterest?

It's back to the daily grind for me today since I've been off the last 3 days due to the change in our pay cycles.
Thanks work.
I caught up on scarf orders, bought yarn for new orders, and sat around my house in my pjs the last three days.
It was pure heaven.

While I've been sitting around in my pjs catching up on my vast amounts of TV shows I decided to stalk everyone on social media. I discovered something though while I was stalking.
Which social media you use says a lot about you.
(Don't get your panties in a wad, I'm guilty of most of this too)

Let us start off with good old Facebook.
The people who prowl Facebook are usually the folk that like to over share.
If you feel like over sharing just get a freakin blog, we share like no other.
There are people who feel that their status update should be a letter. I'm sorry but if I have to click continue reading then we have written too much.
There are the people who feel like sharing with you everything that they are doing: 
I just woke up
 I'm now drinking coffee YUM!
 Ugh Shower Time
 I guess I shall get dressed today
 Ohhh lunch time
 I just had a great lunch
 Hmmm maybe I should get ice cream
....you get the idea.
Also, the people who don't know if they should be in a relationship
Sally is Single
Sally is in a Relationship with Steve
Sally is in a complicated Relationship
Sally is single
Sally is in a relationship with John
Sally is single
Sally is engaged to Steve
Sally is married
Sally is divorced


Those people on Blogger/Wordpress are for sure the over sharers and very egotistical, like people really care about everything you did this past weekend, HA!
I mean come on they feel that they need to share every detail of their lives with complete strangers, wonder why they get mean comments, and don't like being judged.
Psh like I want to know all about the bowel movement your child had and how the doctor then informed you because of said bowel movement your child is going to be the next president of the united states. Then you provide me with photos of your poor child crying at the doctor's appointment just to prove you went.


Twitter gives you 140 characters to share a tid bit of your life. I like to think people on Twitter feel they are pretty dang important.
I mean you get those 140 and you need to make them count. If you are one of those people who continue on another twitter box thingy please direct yourself to Facebook for those other over sharers. I mean 140 little characters to share a part of your day with the whole wide world and then it turns into a race to see how many followers you can grab. You might even get a photo now and then to spice things up.


Instagram is basically for people who think they should be photographers but probably wouldn't actually make any money off of doing it. You also get those people who feel that sharing every different smile, head tilt, and pose should be shared on Instagram but with different filters to accompany them. I also think there is a secret plan on Instagram to make everyone fat. I mean come on, almost daily I will see everything everyone is eating or drinking. Thanks for sharing that amazing lobster tail with a wonderful wine followed up with a chocolate overload. I'm now going to go shovel my face after eating my tiny little salad. Oh, and don't forget those puppy and kitty parents. I don't see many children it is mainly a dog or cat laying around doing something cute.


Tumblr I don't even know. It is like Pinterest and Instagram had a baby or something who also decided instead of using Blogger/Wordpress they would just describe every thought in photos. Complicated and Confusing.


Pinterest, Oh sweet sweet Pinterest.
The site that makes everyone feel like they too can be a stay at home wife/mother. Also, the site that inflated wedding prices because "I just have to have those shoes that so and so pinned the other day but then I need to make this amazing Victorian themed card box holder because it would just be the most amazing thing ever".
Oh Pinterest, how you make single women dream, people who can't cook hope, and mothers feel bad because they weren't able to make their child's bedroom look like the inside of a tree house.


YouTube is that area where people feel that they need to show their adorable little kitten taking a nap, their idiot friend running in a wall, or the strange Koren man dancing around like he is riding a horse. I do enjoy Jenna Marbles though....she speaks the truth. She is like a modern day prophet or something.


Oh I think there was something called Google Plus....I'm not really sure but oh well.


Since I'm posting a large amount of Someecards with this post I felt like sharing a couple that made me giggle.



Hope you are all enjoying your Thursday!

Monday, December 10, 2012

Wine and Cheesey Cracker Fueled Musings

Howdy Ladies!
Ok, sorry, I admit I'm never going to say howdy again.
I hope everyone had a lovely weekend mine consisted of being terrorised by stray dogs.


I know that sounds weird and I felt bad because I want to love and save pups all the time but not when they want to eat my poor dog.
Friday night I went to my mom's house to do laundry (don't judge it is a whole hell of a lot easier than paying to go to the laundromat) and I didn't get back to my place till late. When I pulled up I saw something in front of my car so I got out and left Sky in the car. I'm glad I did because they were two big stray dogs and Sky doesn't sometimes deal well with others. When I got out they were just standing there but they started to growl at me and come towards me so I went into the apartment to put my things down and try to chase them away to get Sky. I sadly had to stand watch while they growled at the car and walked around it until they got distracted by something long enough for me to run out and grab Sky and run her back in. About an hour later I decided to try and take Sky out to go to the bathroom before bed, big mistake. I opened the door and started to walk out when they both started coming at us growling and baring teeth. We rushed back into the apartment and sadly started to feel like we were being held hostage. I hoped that maybe by the morning time they would move on.

I woke up Saturday morning and looked out the window. Low and behold the two assholes were walking back and forth in front of the apartment. I grabbed Sky on her leash and waited for the right time to try and run her out. Some poor cyclist tried to ride by them to almost be attacked and then a car stopped, I guess in an attempt to help them, and that was my signal. We ran out of the apartment, Sky did a quick potty break, and we ran back inside. I was running late for work at this time and feeling horrible that she couldn't have a walk so I did the only thing I could think of. I called my mom and begged her to come over and rescue Sky and take her to her place because who knew when this was going to be resolved. I had already called the cops and was informed animal control would be the only people who could help us and they weren't open till Monday, thanks. My mom of course didn't see the strays but still took Sky and by the time I got home I didn't see them so I'm hoping that someone grabbed the little devil dogs.

Other than that excitement I had to deal with my job changing our pay weeks and schedules so I had to remake everything and I got one of my orders of scarves done! I am hoping since I'm off the next 3 days that I can get the rest of the small orders done that I have!

So every now and then I will write a post about someone elses struggles with either being single, being in a bad relationship, or just their travels with love.
I posted about a girl named Crystal, a bit about my Grandma, and then myself.

I received a message the other night from one of my bestest friends in the whole wide world. I don't think I should include her name because, well, she wrote it to me while drunk and she said she might not even remember writing it but she gave me permission to post it.
I did text her and she said go right ahead and post it soooo I am.
She even told me what the title should be, sassy little thing that she is.

Today is the six month "anniversary" of my boyfriend and my relationship. To be honest, I don't think this is such a big deal, but I know it is for him (seeing as how he celebrated our one month, two month, and four month "anniversaries".

To provide some backstory: I have been in two three year long relationships that ended for different reasons (the first guy was mildly psychologically and emotionally abusive whereas the second was a deadbeat mooches who lived off me and my parents like a parasite and eventually charged over $1000 to my credit card in a single month even though I used my debit account to buy all our food and pay rent). Both of these relationships were very serious and both had expectations and numerous discussions of marriage and children and a whole life together.

I guess what I mean to say is that I'm jaded. I'm broken and tired and used and abused and just...at a loss. Even though I have had time to heal and even though I am now in a relationship with a completely wonderful guy, I just can't help but be guarded. What if he fools me the way they did? What if he too will eventually turn around and break me the way I was before?

I just have such a hard time celebrating something as small and simple as a "six month anniversary" when I have been there and done that twice before. I just cannot help but focus on the bad endings I have already experienced and feeling like there is no other ending out there for me. I always look at other relationships that have lasted for decades (I am in dental school and see a lot of older patients who have been married longer than my parents have even been alive) and I can't help but angrily scream in my mind, "Why isn't that me? Why can't I find love like that? Why can't I be happy forever?"

Now, I am not one to cling to trite quotations that constantly come in and out of vogue, but there is one that has stuck with me since I heard it who knows how many years ago:
"The journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step." Lao-tsu

I can't even begin to explain why or how it makes me feel better, but it always does. There is just something about imagining Pavarotti anxiously wringing his hands while waiting to perform at his first audition or Van Gogh putting his paintbrush to canvas for the first time that puts it all into perspective.

Maybe this isn't the beginning of my life-long love affair, but I have no doubt that it will guide me to that place where I need to be and give me the experiences I need to take the plunge and begin the journey in which I so desperately want to take part.

I read this and just sat there for a while thinking. Thinking first how I wish I could find these two guys and beat them into a pulp and then remembered I'm pretty weak, but then I think about how much I love her. I completely understand how she feels and the worries that are going through her mind. She didn't rush into this relationship, on the contrary she held this one pretty much at arms length at the beginning and then it turned into something. I hope she gets her happily ever after because this wonderful person for sure really deserves it, especially after those two assholes.

If any of you would like to share your story, good or bad, just email me and I can either post it telling people who you are or I can do as I did above and keep your identity private.

XOX
Brie

Friday, December 7, 2012

Friday Letters....Wait, What is a Friday?



Dear Friday What are you?

Dear Starbucks I thought about stopping at you on my way to work but after yesterday you are still on my shit list and now I'm sitting here still sleepy.

Dear Self Stop trying to teach yourself more things to make and get your orders completed. Jeeze talk about procrastination.

Dear Society Can we please bring in nap time. I could really use one sometimes, maybe not even for a nap, but more for quiet time so I can just relax.

Dear Spa Thanks for sending me a text message to remind me I have a hair appointment. I completely forgot and almost scheduled myself to work that day.

Dear Target I need more lights for the tree and I'm getting a little upset that you don't carry the ones I bought. What the hell dude?!

Dear Smidgen Since your trip to the vet you've been pretty lovey dovey. Did they give you some kind of happy pill because I'm a little confused.

Dear Work REALLY?!

Dear New York I'm very sorry I wont get to see you for my 25th but sadly you require money which I do not have. I was really looking forward to staying near Times Square for $29/night at the Hampton. I'm going to go cry a little bit.

Dear Florida Lotto If you want to throw a couple thousand my way that would be great. I don't need a lot but I would just like a bit so I can pay some debt off and maybe take a trip aka go to New York.

Dear Cosmos Can you possible send a cute boy my way because seriously I would like a date sometime soon. I've $150 to spend before the 15th and I don't feel like going to fancy by myself.

Dear Followers I'm thinking of doing a group giveaway this month. If you want to join in let me know and I'll see what we can throw together.

Side Note: I'm currently offering all my ad spaces for Free. Just head over to the Sponsor tab at the top. Up, Up Up Look to the right. Yep there it is. The promo code is on that page so just go ahead and pick what ya want.

Hope you all have a great weekend!

Thursday, December 6, 2012

You Are on My Shit List Starbucks

I was thinking about doing a post about....something. Ok, I'll admit, I didn't actually know what I was going to write about but I decided to complain about one of the loves in my life.

I've been skimping on Starbucks runs due to money or time in the morning. Last night I was up kind of late eating spaghetti, drinking wine, watching the new Batman movie, and eating some cookies I made. I then forgot to start on a scarf because I was sitting there tipsy eating cookies and watching men punch each other. So I had to at least start one so I didn't feel like a complete lazy bum.

This morning I woke up a like wineover and wanting a much needed hot shower, of course my hot water only lasted 5 minutes so then I was standing there freezing my buns off.
Thanks hot water heater, you ass.
I didn't care that I might be late for work, seeing as I make the schedule, so I stopped off for some much needed Starbucks.

I don't think I should have stopped, I think I should have gone to work.
There was a line for some odd reason on a Thursday especially when there was one girl running register, 2 women making coffee and one guy washing and prepping food orders.
I walked up to the chipper woman who had probably been their since 5 so she was ahead of me on the awake game especially with my cold shower.
I ordered my usual hot venti peppermint white chocolate mocha.
I realised one of the ladies working behind the counter was new, as in didn't know how to make drinks new.
The other woman instead of assisting was just making her own drinks and shouting things over her shoulder to the slow old hag newbie. This trip was taking longer than forever because the orders weren't coming out in the right order, no one was calling names so you had to guess, and orders were being made twice.

I stood there patiently knowing that I was already late so there wasn't a reason to rush when the hag newbie calls out my name and reads my order off the cup to me.
Venti Peppermint White Chocolate Mocha.
I smile and rush out to my car so I can go rescue my employee from a busy morning.
I'm at the traffic light, take a sip, and then just stare at my cup.
This is NOT a freaking PEPPERMINT WHITE CHOCOLATE MOCHA!

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I'm now sitting at my desk dealing with a morning from hell with wet hair since I was too lazy to dry it. I wanted to go back and complain but I figured with the 15 minutes it took to get the drink order wrong the first time I was not going to wait for them to try and make it right the second time.

So Starbucks.....you are on my shit list starting today.
Thanks

Wednesday, December 5, 2012

A Mental Breakdown With A Side of Christmas Cheer

So....first, sorry I've been MIA.
Let us just say that over the weekend I hit the proverbial wall of doom.
It was bad, I didn't cry, I just got all icky and gross and people looked at me and tried to inform me I should curl up in my bed in a wine induced coma.
I didn't though because I didn't have enough money to buy wine.
I really think the government should give single women an allowance each week for wine.
That would create a lot of happy(er) women in the world.

Anyhooser....
Friday at work was "Let us all scream at Brie and make her wish she could hide in a hole" Day. I got over it but I hate when customers feel like I should be their punching bag. Other than that I had an uneventful weekend of just working and making scarves and teaching myself to make flowers and then deciding to make a drink holder thingy with a flower on it.
TADA
I'm not sharing a photo because a) I'm giving them out as gifts and b) you should have seen them already if you follow me on twitter or instagram .
So stop being a slacker and get on that shit.

Sunday night I went out to dinner with the folks which was nice. We chatted about my raise, about life and then I almost had a meltdown at the table. It's cool....we are allll over that now.

Monday SKY WENT TO DOGGIE DAY CARE!
When the area is in season I usually am at the hotel 10 hr days 6 or 7 days a week and I feel horrible at the prospect of my dog sitting in her cage for all of that time. I figured let us find a doggie day care for right now so we have one lined up so a couple days a week she can go romp around and be a dog. They interview the dog (it is a free 3 hr session) and she passed!
I seriously walked in to pick her up and asked if she ate someones dog.
They looked at me like I was nuts but informed me she was a bit "growley" in the beginning.
She did sleep for the rest of the day which I thought was amazing.

Tuesday I had to wrangle the cat up so I could take her to the vets. I seriously think when I'm driving people must be looking at me like the crazy cat lady because Smidgen has to sit on my lap while I'm driving or she tries to climb under the peddles or into the glove box.
It's an issue I try to avoid.
I got home and avoided my yarn (once I start I have an issue stopping) so I could clean the place that I consider my home. I got it done but I still hold strong that I should have a maid or something. My mom and grandma came over that evening (even though my grandmother got a spot removed from her face that had cancer cells but I'm not getting into that) so we could go get MY CHRISTMAS TREE!!!!!! Mom and I went to Target to see about a wreath, which they didn't have the one I wanted, but she got me 4 little owl ornaments, YAY, then we headed over to Home Depot for the tree.

I used to work for them, hence why they got my business, and I seriously was jumping up and down in the tent. My mother thought I had lost my mind, and I think the little man helping us did too.
I got the tree on the first try!
We were able to slide the little stinker into the back of their hatchback car and we headed home to set it up.
That was interesting but now my house has an overpowering smell of pine.
I'm the happiest girl in the world!
It needs more lights but I will get on that over the next couple of days :)

Yep, the flowers I accidentally got are still alive and yes that is an owl tree topper.

I hope everyone is having a great week and that you are getting all set for the upcoming holidays!!!

Til next time lovelies
XOXOX
 
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